Look, intellectually, I know it is not healthy. But I am angry today and I am going to embrace it.
Discussions last night took an ugly turn, and yet, I am being made out to be the bad guy. I am the one taking it too far.
She is the one, however, who did NOT delete the email account the two of them used. And, in fact, she reactivated it last week on the off chance that he did try to contact her.
Loud voices punctuated by finger pointing followed, at which point I was labeled as reading too much into it and taking it too far.
[Let me interject, here - there never has been an occasion of physical violence, nor has this been insinuated. But, yes, I do get loud and I do emphasize my words with literal finger-pointing ... from across the room. That, apparently, is taking it too far. I believe yelling and finger pointing are, although not helpful, perhaps, are not surprising and not atypical reactions to the events that happened. But apparently I don't get a pass on that.]
All of this sounds crazy. How can this be spun that I am the one going too far? Ok. Maybe she didn't contact him again. (Hard to say, exactly.) But hell, she left the door open for him! What would have happened if he had walked in?
And, again, I am the one taking things too far - imagining things that didn't happen. Getting angry over something I made up in my head.
So, today, Anger, welcome. Sit beside me. Can I get you anything? Don't be shy. If you need something, let me know. I appreciate your being here.
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