Let me be clear - and this is supported by her - I had no hand in this. It was pure selfishness on her part. Honestly, our life was going great. We enjoyed spending time together, as a couple and as a family. Our sex life was great. Home repairs were rocking and rolling.
She sought out this old boyfriend on her own and engaged in this behavior for six months.
So when I am told that I can take this opportunity to improve what we had - we had it awesome! And she agrees. Don't give me this "surely there was something you could have done" business. No. She did this all her own.
And yet, the effort falls on me. And I don't have the strength to do it. All I see is him and her. All I hear is her words to him - words that I thought I alone was hearing.
I can not progress past this point.
