I Don't Feel Like It Today

Sometimes I can push everything down and try to be nice and understanding.

I just don't have the energy today.  I just can't do it.

I have had a good string of being decent and accepting and there have been some good moments.

I'm just hitting bottom today, and I don't know why.  I suppose I should try.  The counselor would suggest it.  But damn it...  I don't feel like it.

I just don't feel like it today.

Blame and Guilt

I hate it that if I get angry, I am made to feel bad.

This affair has not been resolved, and when it bubbles up again and I question your commitment, you make me feel worse - as if I am not allowed to have these feelings.

Well, guess what.  I feel like crap.  I am struggling to work through this.  And if I have a bad day, you need to suck it up and take it.  I know I can't punish you forever.  But dammit, this sucks.

(And I'm allowed to be pissed off that you are checking him out on Facebook.)

When I am pissed off about it, don't threaten me that I am going to lose you.